Praying is mandatory, however once you begin to trust in God your life will change forever. He will in his time give you direction to a better future, put opportunities in front of you for employment, great health and an endless amount of people to share the rest of your life with. My prayers are with you, I will pray for you to be willing to trust in God 100%. You have to give him everything. I tried the 99% for God and 1% for myself it just doesn't work. Have an open mind, be honest and willing to change.