I agree with many of the other replies - if you need to cry, then cry. I have been through many things in my life, but I have a husband that will probably loose me first. 4 1/2 years ago I was diagnosed with incurable brain cancer. Most people live between 8 months to 1 1/2 years. Like I said that was 4 1/2 years ago, 2 brain surgeries, radiation and lots of medicine. They told me my faith and attitude is what is keeping me alive.
God bless you and my hubby and I will pray for you.