When you are not sure, when you hope for the best, then you will fear the worst. When you are absolutely certain, even if it is a certainty of suffering, fear disappears, and strength flows in its place. I have a certainty of suffering. I am Bi-Polar 1 and I got really sick and had to leave my job. I haven't been working since and don't even get disability. Please pray that I can keep my sanity and have strength for my kids. I suffer every day with this illness.