Lord, I am weak and I have made stupid choices without thinking it threw clearly. I know a lot of people would judge me for such a mistake, a mistake that ended up being a mortal sin. I know now that I was wrong, but at the time I felt justified because I was in love. This was a person who was a soulmate, you can tell because of how we started talking immediately like we knew each other. But this person had reached out to me, saying he was trying to find his soulmate. He did, but probably not the soulmate he was supposed to be with. I'm a very spiritual person but also very weak and I need help being stronger, I need help removing all my doubts and have total faith in you lord. You say that if u have enough faith you can move mountains but I think my mind has been conditioned to doubt and to think negatively because my life has been so bad. I don't know what to believe and I just fell so dark, so anxious , so awful. I suppose its not even feasible to be friends at this point, because it's obvious I still love him and probably always will. Because he actually did the right thing, after having made a mistake. Or did he? I don't know I'm so confused. I need help I need clarity. I need to be positive I need love. I have asked for a husband for so so long and all I get is more lessons. That was horrible I feel so sad, so depressed. All I want to do is talk to him one last time, to tell him how I feel, to say goodbye. Please Lord I know that if u ask anything in your name you can have it but you have to have faith. Please give me that faith lord. Because I feel so bad about myself. Because I love someone I can't have. Because I am afraid of losing him forever. Because I am afraid is already gone. Because I have low self esteem and can't even look people in the eyes. I need peace. I need to handle this and move on. I know that you know I meant no harm God even when I was stupid and didn't listen to my gut. I fell for him hard I felt I couldn't help it. I am selfish, I am wrong, I am sick, but God I didn't mean to commit a mortal sin. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. Please let him call and say goodbye. I cannot sleep and am not eating much as well. Please send me a miracle regarding the situation. I love you Lord, Amen
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