My heart aches for you. May the Angel of the Lord be present in your life until you SEE YOURSELF through the eyes of God. The devil is the father of all lies. The most subtle lies he tells are the continuous ones he tells us about us. They eventually have us speaking death to ourselves. The lies that drown us in a feeling of inferiority. Please find someone to talk to, pour your heart out to God, in spirit and truth (He is waiting for you). You are worthy of God's best for you-I KNOW this because you are still here-still drawing the breath of life. You are precious in God's sight. You are loved by everyone on this page my dear sister. When we are weak, God is strong...look up.