FATHER GOD I NEED YOUR LOVE AND UR MERCY RIGHT NOW...I HAVE SOME TOUGH DECISIONS TO MAKE RIGHT NOW. I DONT KNOW WAT TO DO. I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO PUT MY FOOT DOWN AND STEP UP FOR MY BELIEFS. BUT I KNO THIS COMES WIT A RISK. IM HAVING TROUBLE FIGURING OUT WAT IS WORTH IT AND WAT IS NOT. I KNO ME STEEPING UP AND SAYIN HOW I FEEL WILL INDEED PUSH HIM AWAY BUT I NEED TO DO THIS FOR ME. I NEED TO KNOW WHERE I STAND AND WHERE WE STAND AND WHAT WILL HAPPEN. EVERY1 TELLS ME TO B PATIENT OTHERS SAY LET IT GO BUT I DONT KNO WAT AYANA NEEDS TOO DO. HELP ME GOD PLEASE. U KNOW MY HEART BETTER THAN I DO. I YEARN FOR HIM BUT I DONT WANNA HAVE TO WORRY BOUT ALL THE EXTRAS....I WANNA GIVE MY ALL WITOUT WORRYIN BOUT COMPETING WIT A PASS RELATIONSHIP. I JUST DONT KNOW WAT I NEED TO DO FATHER GOD. I DO PLAN ON STEPPING UP AND SAYING HOW I FEEL BUT IM AFRAID OF THE OUTCOME. FATHER GOD GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO SEE THIS THROUGH. ONLY U KNOW WAT WILL BECOME..I NEED YOU RIGHT NOW FATHER GOD