Please pray for me...lately I have been unhappy about my life and especially now. It seems that every decision I make is out of survival and not really what I want to do. God has given me many gifts...writing, singing under the anointing, performing artist, teacher in (elementary school) and the Word, intecessor, preacher of the Word...yet I am so very unhappy because I feel like I have not accomplished in life and have done the things I am gifted to do. I have a major heart cry for helping people in the world...the lost, dying, and the sick..yet when I stepped out 2 years ago and gave up all to follow the Lord...I ended up destitute, losing my home, no money, no job, living hand to mouth and alone....At the time I had been walking with the Lord for18 years. I literally felt like God had left me. It was a dusty desert place with no water. People who were suppose to be Christians talked about me and how stupid I was to give up all. I fasted and prayed about stepping out to serve the higher call for 3 years before I stepped out on faith...needless to say..I won't be doing that again..yet I feel so sad because the dreams and visions in my heart can't stay there..HELP!