I was where you are (and still have a ways to go) and I'll tell you this, anything you lose is not a loss. It's letting go of old things to receive the new. And it's not going to be subtle and it's not always going to be understandable. But understand this, it's only material things. As long as you are breathing, you can overcome adversity and God will send you Angels to help you along the way. Your material things are in heaven and all it has to offer. It will bring you to a closer relationship with God. Knowing this will get you through a growling stomach.....most of the time. Best wishes through your growing process.