God sees you and hears you don't give up his toughest battles are given to his strongest warriors fight this battle on your knees my sister!

You may not like my suggestion, but have you thought of leaving? I don't know how old your children are, but I don't believe God wants them growing up in the atmosphere of an active alcoholic. Many years ago I struggled with leaving my alcoholic and abusive husband because I took an oath under God to stay in good times or in bad. But what I forgot was that HE also took that same oath before God but didn't keep it. Because he made a bit more money than I did (for just 4 years out of our 12-year marriage), I was afraid I couldn't support my 2 sons on my own (I knew he wouldn't pay support). However, what I learned was that my sons and I were actually better off because the money I earned wasn't being wasted and contributing to his drinking anymore. I hadn't realized that I was paying well over half of the bills, which only allowed him to drink more. We also racked up credit card debt because all the money was going on bills but the kids still needed things that I didn't have the cash for. It was a vicious cycle. But after leaving, I found I was actually able to pay my bills (on time) and pay off my credit cards. An alcoholic will only change when they hit rock bottom and lose everything. It may be what he needs to quit and you may have a chance to reunite. AFTER you leave with your children (you may need to leave while he's at work if your situation warrants it), explain the truth to them--that you love him, but no one should live under those circumstances. I didn't leave until my sons were 10 and 12. Unfortunately, although they are not active alcoholics (thank the Lord), they exhibit some characteristics (coldness) of their father that break my heart and have caused problems for them. For my sons' sake, I wish I had left for good much sooner. Please think about it. God will be with you and I will be praying for you.