My heart goes out to you Vee. Are you on medication and talking to a counselor? We all need someone to talk to, and the Lord may be trying to lovingly push you in that direction. Medication can work wonders. A professional counselor can be a blessing and help walk you through the steps you need to take to overcome your depression and find happiness. There is help out there. In the meantime, do yourself a favor and take a walk around the block and say hi to every person you come across. It may sound silly, but I guarantee you will feel better afterwards. By doing this at the same time every day, you will run into a few of the same people. Eventually you strike up conversations with people, and before you know it, you're having coffee with a new friend. Many years ago, I thought it was stupid when a counselor told me to do this. But it ended up changing my life! Please try it for at least 2 weeks. I would love to know how it works for you after that. You will also be in my prayers.