Do you have a support system in place? Is there someone you can talk to who can help get you through this rough time? You shouldn't go through it alone. Also...Try locking yourself in your bedroom and pray and talk to the Lord. He knows your struggle. Sometimes I think God puts us through tough times so we will turn to Him and talk. He may want to tell you something that you won't hear unless you quietly talk to Him. In the meantime, we will also be praying for you.