Prayer Request
This is an ongoing urgent prayer request. I made a bad mistake 4 years ago that cost me my marriage and evrything else I love. I’ve destroyed my family and I’m now incompetent and can’t handle anything. I have a bad brain injury from pharma med. and I’ve literally lost my mind. All this has destroyed my nervous system to where I’m I. Constant paranoia and catatonic state and out of my mind. The grief and trauma of what I’ve done and how it has effected so many is more then my mind can handle anymore. I don’t know what to do. I pray and beg for Gods mercy but only getting worse. Please pray for me and if God has a word about me to someone please let me know. 4 years like this. Not a second goes by that I feel mentally stable. I pray for God to take me so everyone can heal. And I do believe maybe his wrath is on me.
And yes I have repented and ask for forgiveness.
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I have had this kind of shame and grief and in some ways, I still do. I learned techniques to help my brain to disengage with the memories and what they do to me. I want to fix everything and I can't. So how do I live? It's work but after a few years, I have learned thought techniques and breathing, and moving and blocking being in my head and wake up into where I am right this minute...alive with other things to experience that can bring me joy. It takes good sleep, healthy eating, moving and some new friendships maybe....reading, music. Be in the moment....alive. It will and IS okay.
Condemnation is not of God. You have repented and have been forgiven, so please don't hold yourself hostage or in bondage to past mistakes. God is waiting on you to live as if you are free from your past sins. Whom the Son of God sets free, is free indeed. The Lord has forgotten and forgiven your sins, so should you. It's time to live again.