Dear God,
Im at the end of my rope,everything I do fails. I know theirs a Purpose but I just cant seem to live up to whatever that may be! I lost my mother this year and our relationship was so strained that now I will never know if she truly loved me! I published my first book,but its not doing well as I hoped. I know suicided is never the answer,but sometimes I wonder if it would be better if I was here! I have four children and nine grandchildren and I dont see them as much as I want due that their al spreaded out!!!! I just want to be able to be a productive Human Being that can provided for her self as well as for my family. Im also the eldest of four children and we arent close and since mother passed ive been made to suffer in silence. God I know if it wasnt for you I would have died along time ago,Please im asking to to mantain, I dont want to be rich I just want to be able to live instead of just surviving. Thank you!!!!