Francis, once you trust God to help you, by helping yourself get better, you will see things differently. I have been where you are, and you feel helpless and that there is no light in sight. The night is always the darkest just before the Sun breaks through. God wants to give you a better life, a breakthrough, and a happy home for your children, BUT YOU HAVE TO GET BETTER TO HELP GIVE THIS TO THEM. Reach out to a church near you, many of them have great counselors, that can also prescribe medication to help you. I have suffered from depression most of my life and I recognize it when I see it. Once you feel better and get back into life and get out of the house more, you will see the way clear as to what needs to be done. Become the strong woman God created you to be, He will help you, walk beside you, and never let you down. Good luck and trust God that your best life is yet to be.

Francis, once you feel better, you will hear God directing your steps and you will be able to understand better what you need to do to correct the situation you are now in. If you can't keep your home, then find someone to help you sell it and use the equity to make a brand new start in this life. I don't know how much equity you have or the condition of your home. But there are financial advisers out there to guide you into making the best choice for your family. if possible pay off your debt and make a new life for yourself and your family. Talk to someone that can help you and be sure they are an honest and top-notch company, there are a lot of financial advisers out there that are not honest and not good people, just be cautious about who you choose to help you. God bless and keep you and your family together.

Francis, our devotion group, and I will be praying for you. Please reach out to someone and get the medicine you need for your depression. it will help you to be able to function again and be part of your family and your world. The longer you stay in that mental state, the worse you will feel. God loves you so much and He wants to help you but you have to do your part, get some help, feel better, and then you will His voice, directing your steps and what you should do. Stay in his Holy word, praise Him even when you don't feel like it, and pray to Him everyday, thanking him for what He is going to do in your life and your family's life. I promise you it makes a difference. I can tell from your post that you are hurting, He is there with you to comfort you. First and foremost you MUST GET SOME HELP FOR YOURSELF, GO TO A MENTAL HEALTH CENTER AND THEY WILL HELP YOU. You may need to be hospitalized for a few days to get yourself to feeling better, but there is help for you if you just reach out and accept it. Once you are feeling better the answers will come. Love and Blessings to You, Judith